Due to the lightning storm...

I missed posting yesterday. If anything of note happens, I'll try for twice today. But...don't hold your breath. :)

Yesterday, came to the conclusion that I need a vacation. One, I've never taken one. Two, I'm just flat out burnt out on my life at present. So really, I need two vacations. One as soon as possible -- from work, even tho' I'll still have school. And the other when I have a break from school too, so I can REALLY relax. I've been going 90 to nothing between school and work for almost 18 months now.... I tired.

Last night I went and saw Avatar.... again. :) I really like this movie. I like the exploration of the interconnectedness of all life on this planet. I loved that the hero/human discovers that he can become part of it. I've read articles on people seeing this movie and becoming depressed because they don't live there and I think it's a real cop out. That connection to the world is here -- we've just lost it. Paving over everything in blacktop and concrete, enclosing our lives in steel and glass and plastic, and scoffing at the more esoteric spiritual paths, really kills those connections. There are a few "primitive" groups of humans on this world and I wonder about their connection. Makes you think......

Told myself that I would try....

to post every day, so here is today's post.

I got the stink-eye today from some random woman while standing in line at Subway. Have never seen the woman before but she shot me the most evil looks -- like I was worst than something that stank that she'd stepped in. At first, no clue why. But I looked down and realized that she was looking (glaring, really) at my pendant. It's just a little thing, maybe an inch and a half long goddess figure holding a tiny little disc with a pentacle in it. Gotta love some people. She even tried to block me from getting my drink -- I think she was working up the courage to try to "save" me. But I'm good at weaving through tight spots and just smiled at her as I walked away. Goddess love her. :)

Another awesome day!!!

Met with the director today -- and he LOVED everything I had to show!! Yay!! Seems we're very much on the same page (no pun there, really) about the characters and what they represent and how that should be evident in their clothes. He all but gushed about the military costume -- to the point of if we can't find one to buy/rent, I may be trying my hand at building one! Good, blessed, Lady I'm going to be busy this spring!! Nothing like being up to your eyeballs in fabric. But, I'm loving every moment of it!!

Now if I can just settle on a time period for the internship project so that I can start shopping for fabrics.... Oh, yeah, and find a guinea pig.... make that a model.... :)

Today was cool....

I was sitting, waiting for the acting class before mine to finish (ok I was way early and had to wait, like, an hour) and leave the theatre, and listening to my ipod. To better enjoy PCD, I leaned back against the wall and closed my eyes. It was very soothing (if soothing is a good word when listening to rock music) to basically loose myself into the darkness behind my eyelids into the music.

But while I was sitting there, waiting, I felt it. It was like I was being embraced, from behind, by the Lady herself -- being pulled into the lap of the Blessed Mother and cradled like I was Her most cherished child. It was a crystalline moment. One of those times when everything has a clarity to it and you feel completely at peace with the universe. Those moments are few and far between most of the time since I have my personal struggles. So I treasure those moments. They tell me that I am loved regardless of my "family" issues. That I AM making progress in the right direction.

Moments like those are the reason that whenever I feel like making my prayers into a request -- please let me or help me or give me -- I try my best to turn them into prayers of thanks. Thank you for the love of those around me. Thank you for the family I have. Thank you for this opportunity to go back to school.....

So, I will keep putting my feet one in front of the other. I will try to post with regularity about this journey thru school. And I will endeavor to maintain the vivid memory of that moment in the front of my mind for as long as possible.

Blessed be.

Apparently...I'm boring....

go figure. The blog background is too boring for the spawn. She insists that I find something more interesting for the rare person who may stumble upon this thing to look at. So, a quest. I shall find something that speaks to me and screams my personality to the winds..... Or, maybe just a pretty picture. I dunno. We'll see.

In the meantime, I've gotten confirmation that I'll be designing the costumes for the last show of the semester at the university. YAY me!! Progress!! I have to put together an independent project so my supervisor and I are discussing a period piece -- maybe Edwardian or Victorian era costuming. Ahhh, costumers' porn!!! I must tear thru the 'net and find all sorts of purdy pics and then use them as inspiration.... It'll certainly be an expensive project. But, damn, it'll be fun!

Maybe I'll post pictures.....

Have to begin...

somewhere....right?

The child has been pestering me for ages to "blog". But everyone seems to blog and I've never been one to follow the crowd. So, now, months later, I guess I'm getting with the program.

We'll see where this beginning takes me....